easily and often

Thanks to anibundel for this!

I feel like shit today...more than usual.
I resent having to be awake.
I'm angry and uncomfortable.
This knee is taking too long to heal.
I'm aggravated and frustrated.

Exactly where I need to be.

I don't FEEL like I'm exactly where I need to be.
I feel like biting the heads off a herd of beanie babies,
drugging myself
and sleeping till Saturday.

But my feelings don't own me.
My feelings are not going to run my life.

Part of me knows that this uncomfortable,
angry,
awful,
bite beanie baby heads
is all part of the healing.

The more impatient I am the more I need to learn patience.
The more angry I am the more I need to practice forgiveness.
The more pain I have the more I must nourish myself.

Detoxing is a helluva thing.
Less caffeine.
No bread.
No grains.
Eating protein and produce regularly.
More fat.
Hardly any sugar.
Lots of deep breathing.

Life felt so much easier when I was jacking up on coffee and energy drinks.
But that way of life was breaking me,
literally, breaking me.
Physically breaking me like a sledgehammer to rock.

How long was my body going to hold out while I lurched around
forcing my body to run on stimulants and starchy foods (brown rice and tofu for instance)?

Time has run already run out.
My knee ruptured and will not heal unless ...
I stay off it
and
nourish my body with good food and good rest.

The result is not instant.
Change of lifestyle isn't like a drug.
One does not get an instant cure.

There 's plenty of sadness for me to feel,
plenty of pain,
plenty of cravings,
lots of tears, headaches and moods.

So when I realized it was time to do part 3 of my Vision Worksheet
I immediately wanted to go back to bed,
scream,
cry and procrastinate.

But as I said, my feelings don't run me.
I'll do it.
Right now.

THEN I may go scream cry and pound my pillows.
For now?
It's time to envision my financial state.
Part 3 of the Vision Worksheet.

Financial
a)Exactly how much money do you want each week, month, year?
b) What is your relationship with money now and what would you like it to be?

a) I want $2000 a week, $8000 a month, $100,000 a year.
b) My relationship with money now has been worrisome and fearful.
I have worried that I won't have enough.
I would like to have money come to me easily and often.
Money comes to me easily and frequently.
I envision a steady stream of more than enough money to create a living environment where me and my loved ones are comfortable, where I can entertain and empower others to have more than enough money as well. I see my efforts bringing riches into my life with money being one of the riches.

I do.
I really do.

There's plenty for everyone.
Abundance is the truth.

I am grateful that I am becoming more open to bringing abundance to me and my loved ones.
Financial freedom is possible, is happening, is mine.

Now can I go scream and cry?

*Lisa's Video Pick of the Day*
"Words are powerful magic.
We create with them whatever we choose."
The music to this one sounds like the opening thing to a cop show!
lol
But watch it.
Let the words penetrate your psyche.
They are true of you let them be true.
click here or click below