No breakfast?

Night-eating syndrome:
Most of the day's calories are
eaten late in the day or at night.
Someone with this disorder has
little
or
no appetite
for breakfast.
S/he delays their first meal for several hours
after waking up and is often upset
about how much was eaten the night before.
- Lesser Known Eating Disorders

Wow.
I had no idea that avoiding breakfast and eating too much at night was considered an eating disorder!

I used to be like that.
I would hate to "start" eating in the morning. I was afraid it would set off a day's worth of overeating. It usually did.

Riddled with guilt from my binge the night before, I would start the day with coffee and nothing else hoping to make up for overeating the night before.

I would hold out for as long as I could with no food,
sometimes going all day without eating
only to make up for it by overeating from sundown till I passed out at bedtime.

The starve-all-day cycle was difficult to break.
Well, it took the gastric bypass to help me break it.

Now, I eat within a few hours of waking because I'm hungry.
Our bodies need fuel in the morning.
The surgery prevents me from eating too much.

My healthy breakfast (today it was leftover chicken, vegetable and tofu stew)
begins a day of sane, nourishing meals that I eat when I'm feeling hungry.

Do I still eat recreationally at night?
Yep.
I still have the urge to eat in the evening,
so I do.
However, I no longer eat cookies, ice cream, Entemann's cakes, chips or other junky crap.
I have fruit, fresh vegetables, homemade tamari almonds, sugar free jello, sugar free ice pops, fat free yogurt and the occasional wasa or rice cakes.

Do I still have the eating disorder?
The tendency?
I dunno.
Maybe.
I DO know that I feel better.
That's what matters, I guess.

But I don't want to feel too superior about eating well.
Cuz that would make me orthorexic.
Yeah, orthorexia is an eating disorder too...

Orthorexia nervosa:
People with orthorexia nervosa
feel superior to others who eat
"improper" food,
which might include non-organic
or junk foods
and items found in regular grocery stores,
as opposed to health food stores.
Orthorexics obsess over what to eat,
how much to eat,
how to prepare food "properly,"
and where to obtain "pure"
and
"proper"
foods.
Eating the "right" food becomes an important
or even the primary focus of life.
One's worth or goodness is seen in terms
of what one does or does not eat.
Personal values,
relationships,
career goals,
and friendships
become less important
than the quality
and
timing of
what is consumed.
- Lesser Known Eating Disorders

Nah.
I don't think I'm orthorexic because
I'm not obsessing.

I'm relaxing, or trying to relax.
I'm trying to eat intuitively
without guilt.

*Lisa's Video Pick of the Day*
This "no diet" idea sound great as a way to be healthy.
Why do they have to associate mindful eating with "shedding pounds"
as if that's the only reason to be aware of what we're eating?
Ugh!
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