I wanna be like the cat who's playing!
Right now I don't want to play.
But I want to want to play!
Right now I just want to sleep, take it easy, lounge around, think, write and be left alone by life.
That's not a damp spirit, that's a damp body.
Or a body that needs more spirit.
Or something.
Allz I know is that my body is holding me back from doing things.
I heard today that Amma the hugging guru is in NYC.
I would LOVE to go see her.
Can't.
No energy.
I would love to go to the beach!
Can't.
No energy, can't walk.
I would love to be able to say, "Hey, let's...."
and have the energy and stamina to do it,
whatever "it" may be.
Spoke to my nutritionist yesterday.
Now I'm officially off caffeine.
Totally off.
He had me cut down to one cup/generous mug of black tea per day since late May.
Now I'm down to zero cups/generous mugs per day.
I'm pretty grouchy about it.
But I'm also realizing how much I depended on stimulants for my enthusiasm.
That's what caffeine did for me (or what I thought it did for me).
I didn't get the jitters from it
or get irritable
or antsy.
I got enthused.
Wouldn't it be lovely to have enthusiasm without the chemical kick?
Over the next week I'll be taking a hormone test to see exactly what stage of adrenal fatigue I'm in and which bio-identical hormones I'll need to be taking.
I hear it takes about a year to heal from adrenal fatigue.
I hate to have to wait a whole year.
But the year will pass no matter what.
It will be better to be better a year from now rather than stuck in my depleted, malnourished, caffeine-addicted state.
The year will pass whether I'm healing or not.
Better to heal and look forward to a life of,
"Hey, lets go..."
than to stay sick and tired.
Fightin' the good fight over here.
I hope.
*Lisa's Video Pick of the Day*
Dr. Grace Keenan from Nova Medical Group talks about Adrenal Fatigue, a condition seldom recognized by the mainstream medical community.
Wow, asthma is one of the symptoms of adrenal fatigue?
Who knew?
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3 comments:
It is wise to think of the year passing no matter what you do, because it always does. Unfortunately, I failed miserably on my "first binge-free" day - what else is new. I told myself that I'll try again this morning, but I just don't know if I'll ever be able to overcome this. I have had this issue for so many years, and I have had so many "first new shiny start-over" days - that always end in failure. It is very discouraging.
lisa, lisa, lisa, YOU DID NOT FAIL! You just found another way that doesn't work for you. There is no such thing as a binge-free day. the concept of a binge-free day requires the concept of binges in order to exist.
Reframe it.
What will take the place of that thing you call a binge? Maybe binge eating is one of the ways that you self-soothe. Until you find another way, just improve the quality of the foods you binge on.
Then work on making a ____ full day. A day full of something rather than a day free of something.
I'm also trying to change my mind. When we change our minds our bodies and our behaviours follow.
I'm with you, honey!!
Those cats in the top picture are totally my cats.
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