getting my spirit back

Here I am at 270 ready to begin ....again.
Having lost 150 pounds
and regained 30,
I stand on a ruptured right knee tendon
with my disability scooter.

I may look tired, spent and defeated,
but my spirit is lifting me.
My soul knows where to lead me
and I follow.

"The individual must seek a personal
and responsible spiritual life.
I just 'jump-start' the energy,
but the person must keep
the vehicle operational."
- Ron Roth

I've always been good at finding just the right teacher at just the right time in my life.
I give myself credit for that.
It's rough giving myself credit for anything considering my challenges with self-esteem and self-worth.
Challenges noted,
credit still given....to me.

I'm finally learning that I have the power to heal myself.
Given the right information to work with, I can get well.

That part is tricky.
Getting the right information has been a labyrinthine journey through
all kinds of half-truths and disheartening endeavors.

I dare not call any of them unworthy because that would be false.
They've all been worthy.
Every experience,
every so called 'mistake',
every dimwit doctor,
every surgery,
accident,
class,
crush,
boyfriend,
financial mishap,
dissolved friendship,
fight,
cut-off,
any and every regrettable action has lead me
to further understand myself.
Everything I've done has brought me that much closer to divine understanding.

The main regrets I have are for the time I spent playing it safe,
binge eating myself into a stupor,
staying put in my comfort zone for longer than I needed,
but even that wasted time plays a part in my becoming well.

At age 23 I did not have the same sense of urgency as I do now at 44.
Back then I had all the time in the world, so it seemed.
Now, I know what it means to be middle aged.
I'm at my mid life.
This shit just got urgent.

In a nutshell:
I saw the nutritionist/trainer today.
Darren was with me.
We spent two and a half hours learning to ...I want to type 'fly' but
'eat' is more accurate.
I have clear instructions for food consumption
and movement with the aim of getting healthy.

Will I go into detail??
Of course I will.
Just not today.

My third eye is so squeaky clean I don't want to get any fingerprints on it just yet.
Let me BE with this for right now.

Oh, I should add to that nutshell.
My main spiritual/health issues
are third chakra related.

Yeah.
Third chakra issues involve one's ability to "stand up".
If you think about it symbolically is it any wonder that I'm having trouble standing?

Oh, the wonderful wacky world of wellness.
Time to step into it and stand.

*Lisa's Video Pick of the Day*
My right to be an individual?
Wow.
It is true.
I let other people's expectations of me determine too many of my decisions.
Time to correct!
Listen to Brenda Stanger of WolfWindAwakening.
click here or click below