You are so cool...

Alabama (Patricia Arquette) writes something on her napkin with a pencil.

She slides the napkin over to Clarence (Christian Slater).
It says: 'You're so cool' with a tiny heart drawn on the bottom of it.
Clarence takes the pencil and draws an arrow through the heart.
She takes the napkin and puts it in her pocket.

That's one of my favorite scenes from one of my favorite movies. Clarence the video store guy and Alabama the noobie prostitute steal cocaine from dangerous gangsters and go on a cross country adventure to unload it.

In the middle of a drug deal that precedes an awesome, bloody shoot out (because movies with the word "romance" in the title should always have awesome, bloody shoot outs) she writes him that note.

Very cool.

But you know me.
I'm not happy to simply write a note like that and pretend, for an exhilarating moment that I'm as spunky and lovable as Alabama. No, I don't want to just be the writer of that note, I want to GET that note.

I must have placed an order with the universe for one cuz I got it yesterday.
Yep.
I got it and I almost overlooked it.

Sometimes I get so caught up in my own head with worrying about what I DON'T have I neglect what I DO have.

And then sometimes I notice.

Yesterday's blog was for/about my YouTube friend, SusanPowterRox.
I sent her a message warning her that I was making her famous...haha.
She read the blog post and wrote back to me beginning with this line:
"Lisa you are so cool."

First time I read it I skimmed past that killer line to the rest of the message because I wanted to see her reaction to my blog.
Then part of my brain got all electrified when it snapped back to that opening line and focused on the words...you are so cool.

Gotta pay attention.
Sometimes exactly what we want is right there in front of us and we're too busy to notice.

Thanks, Alabama (draws arrow through heart and gives it back to YouTube friend).
You're awesome.

Last night I went out to a Christmas party with my childhood friend, Gerry.
We had a great time.
We split our attention easily between socializing and each other.
It was an easy, enjoyable evening.

She treated me to a psychic reading from Jack who gave me great news about the collaborative book writing I'll be doing over the break (she also treated me to drinks and dinner for that matter. I'd call that the equivalent of a "you're so cool" note! Thanks, Reno!)

I should have made it a point to get her necklace in the pic.
It's a handmade folk-art Sacred Heart she found on a shopping excursion to Cancun.

It feels great to go out in public as zaftiggy rather than grotesquely obese.
No one stares in wonder or disgust.
I can fit past people in a crowded room to get wherever I'm going.
I can sit anywhere at the table instead of only being able to squeeze into the corner or having to hang my ass out into the aisle.
I can get myself up on a high barstool and sit comfortably.
When they serve a giant homemade birthday cake I can say "no thank you' and not agonize over it wishing I could eat a piece or two or the whole cake.
I appreciate. I am grateful.

2008 is the year of appreciating what I have and creating something new along with it.
I'm formulating my movement commitment for 2008.

I have a feeling daily kickboxing drills will be included because I am just that cool.

*Movement for Motivation*
Looks easy but keeping proper form during these drills is essential.
It takes concentration and stamina.
It's hard work but the payoff is a priceless sense of badass-ery.
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